Let's Take Your Fast Car, And Keep On Driving

I haven't posted in ages! Sincere apologies.

So much mind has been blown in the past week that I don't know if I could fit it all in one post.
I will take it one step at a time for those of you who have a case of the Tuesders.

Loneliness might be a choice, but everyone needs someone they can turn to. Considering my own overwhelming need to be independent, it's no surprise that at this point in my life I do nothing except push people away. Everyone who knows me would consider me stubborn and knows I act mostly from my gut. Over-thinking isn't necessarily in my nature. And when someone gets too close, I push them away. When I don't want to be taken care of, no matter the circumstance, you're better off just leaving me be. I hate the idea of someone having to take care of me. I think that's part of the reason why I'm so opposed to marriage. And why I hate living with my parents. And why, if I'm ever kept alive by tubes, I want them pulled. Or why I never ever want to live in a nursing home. My desire to be independent and alone will most likely kill me some day. But for now I'm just going to take one day at a time.

Last Friday, the reputable NOH8 Campaign and Adam Bouska came to Milwaukee and held a photo shoot as a silent protest for gay rights. Of course I had my picture taken and donated to the cause AND met Adam himself! He complimented my festive red nails a few times and gave me a hug when my shoot was over. I fell in love. I have gained so much more respect for the campaign and can't wait to get my hands dirty in the cause even more!

I saw this Oscar winner over the weekend and oh my lanta.... why did I not see this before? Annette and Julianne were phenomenal. This movie embraces everything I love. Lesbians. Lesbians doing it with a dude. Unconventional families. Wine drinkers. Awkward situations. Mark Ruffalo on a motorcycle. There wasn't a part that I didn't like!

FYI... don't watch this with people who get squeamish with gay-ness. My mom walked out in the first 5 minutes (gay man porn, vibrators, you get the idea)

Does this need an explanation? This is my life right now.

Best way to cure a broken heart? Buy shoes. I cannot even put into words how much moolah I have spent since the parting of ways. Wardrobe = redone. Shoe rack = more colorful. Closet = reorganized. Getting it together is not an option right now.

THREE DAYS TIL MY BIRTHDAY! I hope you all got me something nice :)

How can I get this framed?

Home Is Whenever I'm With You

It's incredible how everyone sees beauty differently.

You know where you see beauty in the world. But do you ever wonder if anyone sees the beauty in you? Do you ever feel so alone that your own confidence and self-worth are almost meaningless? Everyone on this lonely planet deserves to feel beautiful.

Likewise, it is just as important to let everyone in your life know that you love them and need them. They are in your life for a reason. Weed out the bad ones and keep the people who make you feel important.

Never deny anyone of their right to feel beautiful and loved. If you're going to be inconsiderate, rude and fake. Don't waste your breathe.




"Be kind. For everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Plato

Taken For Granted

Thursday Top Ten: I thought I would put together a list of things that bring me straight back to my childhood. In lieu of recent events, I have been reflecting back on everything that has made my life unique, special and all around incredible. Things these days seem to be taken for granted. It's sad to see people getting mistreated for being different or others not realizing how blessed they are. Although I have had so many set-backs and have been through some terrible situations, I know that He loves me and will light up my path when no one is there to walk with me.

Enough enough... to the list.

1. Sporting the latest fashions. My mother made sure I always looked my best for as long as I can remember.... these heart shaped sunnies were the hottest thing while sitting around grandma's pool.

2. Cotton candy. The only reason I wanted to go to so many ridiculous festivals with my family when I was younger was the promise of cotton candy.

3. Bows. I always had to have a bow involved in every ensemble. In my hair. On my blouse. On my ballet flats… Bows were a must. And to be honest… they still are!

4. Dandelions. You can judge me all you want, but picking dandelions in my yard and seeing all the puffies fly away is a very vivid memory from my childhood. 

5. Picking my neighbors flowers ... Ooops :)

6. Weekend Micky Mouse pancakes. My parents would always try to fancy up the American classic by making pancakes into shapes. Definitely memorable.

7. Pretty Pretty Princess. Do I really need to say more? I was one of those girly girls.

8. Dreaming of being Cher in Clueless and wondering how I could talk my mom into buying me those knee high socks…

9. Disney World. By the time I was 12 I had already been to Disney 10 times. It is the happiest place on Earth and I still get goosebumps, butterflies and tears in my eyes whenever I lay eyes on Cinderella's castle. If I could, I would live there and be the happiest girl this world has ever seen.

10. Fishing trips with my dad. Before my world knew stress and angst, the thing I loved more than anything in the world was going fishing just my father and me. The colors in the sunrise, the musty smell of the boat. It doesn't get any better. 

What's your favorite childhood memory?